My Life in the Psalms

I don't even need to blog...because David already did it for me in Psalm 13. This is why God included the Psalms in the bible. It helps us know we're not alone because followers of Jesus Christ in the past have felt the same way we do. I think this was the start of "journaling" as part of the Christian walk.

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
for he has been good to me.



I don't need to say anymore. This is my life in a nutshell right now.

"He can now walk away from these mountains onto the road towards tomorrow"

Wow. please, please watch this. It reminds me of how I should be living my life daily.

http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/world/2008/06/10/lah.japan.suicide.cliff.cnn


My job is fantastic & it's probably the best way I could ever earn money. & my boss is pretty much awesome. It sucks to not have a life, but I just remind myself that I make like $360 a week and I'm pretty content. I need to use the money for plane tickets home during the next year, and to buy stuff for school. I need to buy a lot, so I'm really hoping that I have enough for all the times I'm coming home! I like feeling on top of things. I have a lot more to blog about later. I hope everyone's having a great summer so far!

Graduation

So I graduate today. & I can't even tell you how incredibly anxious I am. I used to think that graduation was going to take FOREVER to get to. But now it's literally tonight. I'm so scared for what it entails. I wasn't going to let myself think about what the ceremony means, but I can't help the inevitable. I don't think high school graduation is much of an accomplishment, but it's really scary. This phase in my life is the hardest and most different yet. I know I relate to a lot of people right now, but none of us know how to deal with it.

I'm still not talking to God much, & it's starting to annoy me now. I've simply just been existing, and I know that's not the way to live. I'm so empty & so anxious. I feel worthless. & if I'm not living with a purpose, I pretty much am worthless right now.

My blog will mainly be intended for writing about the hard stuff going on in my life, and accomplishments too. Comments aren't necessary, so don't feel like you need to say something. Thanks for reading if you do.